>> Wednesday, October 14, 2009
It's been a while since I've posted. I've had a few designs I've been wanting to post but I've just been so distracted the past month or so. For being unemployed I've sure felt very busy, with both good things and with things of no value. I've been feeling God work in my life in amazing ways the past few months as I continue to learn to trust Him with everything, not just the job situation.
I've experienced great moments of proliferation of creativity and also droughts of it, which is where I seem to be right now. And so I'm asking the Lord to help me to persevere and to be joyful no matter what the situation which corresponds with what I'm learning in Summit's new series on James and my Thursday night small group's study of Philippians, respectively.
My 30th birthday is just a few weeks away. Birthdays are always a time of reflection for me, especially this year. I struggle with not being where I want to be or where I'd thought I'd be by now. But the areas I feel lacking (job, prestige, home ownership) are being daily overwhelmed by the areas that God is shining on me (my wife, my son, new community, old friendships, spiritual growth and accountability, His Provision, and the knowledge that He loves me more than I can imagine.) Thing thing is I have to let Him overwhelm me with them on a daily, hourly, minute by minute basis or I can easily get caught in listening to the lies.
I am hopeful about what God is doing and where He is leading us as a family. I trust that it's something greater than my mortal mind can fathom. Virg sent me this, this morning. Waiting has been a huge motif in our lives of late.
A song of ascents.
1 Out of the depths I cry to you, O LORD;
2 O Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.
3 If you, O LORD, kept a record of sins,
O Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness;
therefore you are feared.
5 I wait for the LORD, my soul waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 My soul waits for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning,
more than watchmen wait for the morning.
7 O Israel, put your hope in the LORD,
for with the LORD is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.
So I wait Lord.